100% DIRTY

I feel lucky to be completely aware of how unnaturally sweet and beautiful my life is right now, and that I know these are the “glory days” of my youth. I’m filled with unexplainable optimism and a feeling of being very alive. the group of friends I have now couldn’t be any more devoted to each other and they couldn’t interest me anymore. I tried hard to surround myself in good conversationalists, people who I could see every day and not be bored of. people who immediately won over a soft spot in my heart. Now I find myself standing in a room full of this people, a room with soft white lights on the walls, they all look at me as I enter and they smile at me in a room smelling faintly of cigarettes…it makes my head spin. I have the most adoring lover, the boy I love more than i’ve ever loved another, waiting for me inside a fort lit with a pink glow. Any close friend of mine now is loved more by me than i loved any of my best friends a few years ago. My life is coming together beautifully…i’ve made a pact with my closest friend,my lover, mon cherie, to move out of this state in two years or less from the time that I graduate. Once i find a job i like better than the one I have now, I’ll truly have not one thing to complain about.